A year ago today, my life changed. Not just a little change. I had some big shifts in life and it did a complete 180 degree flip.
I was planning to move back up to LA with my boyfriend at the time, my business was making some quantum leaps, and I was high on life and all the things that were happening.
But deep down I knew something was off, I was waiting for the words to be said, and then they came… “I Don’t think this is working anymore”
It came as a shock to most, we were together for almost 6 years. But it felt like a weight. It needed to happen (for both of us).
And within 24 hours (because our lease was ending in a week) I had to find an apartment, and 2 days later moved my stuff. I chose the higher price apartment because it had the amenities I wanted and how it made me feel. I wasn’t going to play small and get the one that didn’t have anything I desired. I also sobbed on the golf cart to the leasing agent, my mom, friends…lol. Everything was going SO good then this.
I had not prepared at all for this, I felt it coming but didn’t see it coming if that makes sense. I had also just decided to invest into my current coach and was finishing up with my previous coach. My business was making a solid amount at the time, but my rent then increased an extra $1000 because I wasn’t splitting it, I was investing a ton in every way I could back into my business, plus all the move in fees, etc.
I turned my biggest shifts in life into a quantum leap.
I also realized how I had a huge subconscious belief that good things couldn’t stay, I had a fear of what if it all goes away. I had been doing deep healing work for almost a year at that point (and thank god because that’s how I shifted through this), and guess whaaaaat, there’s always more that comes up! Some beliefs we hold we aren’t even aware of.
When I looked at it on paper, i wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to make it work, my monthly payment for my coach was more than my rent, and I was rebuilding my credit, so it was in cash, there was no plan b. I was still teaching fitness classes for fun, so I picked up a couple extra when I could to have a buffer.
I experienced full body trust and surrender more than any time in my life in this moment.
I knew that in my moment where I chose to trust, knew that in my moment where I chose to rise and be in no matter what, god would meet me there.
And he did. Soon after, I would go on to have a 10k month.
I was still investing.
I wasn’t going to let the situation around me determine if I could invest or not.
I got really resourceful.
I chose to heal at the next healing level.
The money was never there.
The timing sure as hell didn’t make sense.
But I believed in myself, my vision, more than anything. & here we are now, living in a quantum shift. Coming off a $27k month, a new relationship, a team of 3, a different apartment.
Same weird silly girl, same vision, all she did was trust, jump, and believe in herself when every situation around her told her not to. She made shifts in life and came out on top.